Day 15 - Nawal Kaan - Meditations on Wisdom
“Meditation on Wisdom” for today Day 15 Wednesday 9 March 2022 Nawal Kaan Cycle 2-2
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REFLECTIONS OF A LIVING TZ’UTUJIIL MAYA NAB’EYSIIL
“If you build the intent within you, the subtle world will respond.”
Entering the Road of Renewal for my body, my living inner light emerges into a vibration or Presence of Living Light that allows the Road of Transmutation to be present. This new Living Light allows me to enter the Road of Renewal into the unknown possibilities for me today. The Presence of the various inner Living Lights of the Wisdoms establishes this entry point into this mystery through the Living Light of Compassion-especially Self-Compassion.
When I am struggling with the overwhelming, controlling perceptions that are being generated through the wounded history of my subconscious mind and my mouth and gums are in pain, and experiencing various forms of limitations, Self-Compassion towards my self is the last focus I initially am able to experience.
This is why when the overwhelming wounded experiences I am fully engaged in towards my mouth and gums, the Foundational Core of Light Ritual is the first place of self-compassion I explore. Without establishing once again my inner felt sense to the Flow of Living Light of the Interconnectivity both within and outside of me, especially within my mouth and gums, whatever I think I am petitioning and opening into, usually is feeding the flow of further separation, pain, judgement, suffering, and challenges for my mouth and gums.
Choosing to do the Foundation Core of Light Ritual, is an act of exploring Self-Compassion. Why is this? Our subconscious mind wounded experiences are so strong and so convincing about my current state of suffering, I believe at this moment that nothing I do or take will ever change this. This is where the addiction to drugs or other numbing procedures or habits can become part of my life. Exploring many of the ideas I am discussing here in “Reflections” is a journey, not necessarily an immediate solution to end our Suffering forever. We have been so conditioned through our tradition and Medical Pharmaceutical Models to get immediate relief from our suffering. When we approach the Road of Renewal, we immediately begin to expect the same.
The Road of Renewal is creating a living co-partnership relationship between our body to our mind to the subtle realms forces of Light. The stronger this relationship develops over time, it allows the Living Light of the Unknown Possibilities to be weaved within us. This changes the way we perceive ourself to our sufferings and our challenges where the immediate end result is not what we are expecting.
We are entering a Road of Renewal where the inner quality towards this emerging co-patterning relationship is our primary focus. This allows the inner mystery through these five phases of our journey where the Living Light of the Regenerative Energies within us is our focus. I may still take medication. I may still use other procedures within the traditional Medical Pharmaceutical Model. But my primary focus is on the Road of Renewal I am primary engaged with. This allows me to form a Living Co-Partnership Relationship through the various forms of the Living Light Behinds the Regenerative energies guiding my journey. This allows me the ability to be weaved within the journey for the Emergence of my Unknown Possibilities to be explored each day.
“If you build the intent within you, the subtle world will respond.”
“You the Living Light of Nawal Kaan, weave me into my Flow of Light of Interconnectivity both within me to everything outside of me. Assist me to have the courage to explore the Foundational Core of Light Ritual regardless of the resistance and the logic I am bringing forward from my current ways of perceiving my struggles and my judgements within my mouth and gums at this moment.”
The Living Light of Self-Compassion cannot be created within ourself. We initially cannot, cannot have Self-Compassion for ourself. When our subconscious mind wounded energies are so fully present the depth and breath of separation and isolation is too great.
The Living Light of Self-Compassion as a Living Force of Presence is always available within us. To establish this Living Co-Partnership relationships with this Living Light, our ability to begin to experience some form of Interconnectivity is needed. The body of the Vision Serpent for Indigenous cultures is one of several symbols that have emerged from them to experience this Flow of Living Light of Interconnectivity from the Heart Behind Life.
“If you build the intent within you, the subtle world will respond.”
“You the Living Light of Nawal Kaan, assist me to experience through your cords of Interconnectivity the Flow of Living Light of the Heart Behind Everything. Weave me with the Living Presence of Light of Compassion. Assist me to feel at this core of the Heart of the Light of Compassion, the Self-Compassion that is available for me regardless of the challenges and the judgements I am currently experiencing within my mouth and gums.”
I added a new section in the Living Light of Nawal Kaan, my experience in ritual of the Vision Serpent emerging into a form and shape reflecting the ancient Indigenous Ways of the Living Cords of Interconnectivity emerges through the outer symbol of the Vision Serpent.
“If you build the intent within you, the subtle world will respond.”
“You the Living Light of Nawal Kaan, assist me to experience my felt sense that is always present of the Flow of the Living Light of Interconnectivity that is within me. Your Living Light of Interconnectivity is stronger than my pain, my suffering, or my challenges that I am currently living with right now.”
“If you build the intent within you, the subtle world will respond.”
“You the Living Light of Nawal Kaan, assist me through your Flow of the Living Light of Interconnectivity that is within me right now, dissolve my Interconnectivity to this voice inside of me that continually brings fear or blame or shame or guilt or doubt or judgement or separation upon myself or others. Especially the related judgements and fears around the massive changes of the unknown experiences I am feel occurring within my mouth and gums.”
Blessings and Love Conrad
Video Clips for Today - Copy and Paste into a Browser
Relating to Our Bodies with Self Compassion 1:42
Self Compassion: Contagious Loving Kindness 3:01
Flow of interconnectivity (Vision Serpent painting by Ilene Satala)
The description for this painting has not emerged yet.
Ilene painted this image of the Vision Serpent in 1986 after an experience we had in our Three Rivers Apartment.
Growing up my full experiences with Nature was through city parks and within various zoo. I lived in terror at the thought of being in “Wild Nature” (not a park or zoo). Here I was ready to embark on the next phase of my journey-doing personal and collective retreats in the rainforests of Mexico and Central America exploring ancient archeological Mayan sites and Indigenous cultures.
On a highly charged Sunday afternoon filled with numerous anxiety and panic attacks of exploring these areas of Wild Nature in foreign lands.
We laid down on the bed and Ilene tried to take me into a meditation to find my core! Suddenly we heard this loud booming sound of a cracking-breaking open of something. Our apartment was at the level of a large portal of the three rivers coming together at his point in the physical geography. My eyes were closed, Ilene eyes were open and yet we both perceived in vivid color these same set of images and experiences.
We both felt and saw portals both on the land, water, and in the air. The large portal of the Three Rivers cracked open and this dark, thick, substance emerged from this portal creating a streaming flow of one end emerging from the center of this portal and the other end flowing through the glass of the window next to our bed. It quaickly burst open into this multicolored image of a big lip face hovering over my head for a minute or so. Then it leaned forward and kissed me on my lips. Suddenly all my fears, my anxieties, my body tensions, and my thoughts floating around in my mind of fears, doubts, and ultimate doom vanished in a second or two. Suddenly I had a felt sense of an inner calmness throughout my entire body along with a quietness of my mind that I had never experiences before in over 15 years of meditate practices.
It was a long kiss, and after its release, I was totally aware of both the outer and inner safety within all of Nature. I experienced this felt sen knowing that there was a natural flow connecting everything and anything. Not just the Interconnectivity within all of nature, but also to all animals, all organic substances, and including all human beings. Not just to five sensory forms of humans, but a flow between every system, organ, and cell within my body. This same flow of interconnectivity was also available through each object that was created and existed in the world around us. There was this web of Light of Interconnectivity behind everything and anything. Years later I would explore the concept of web of interconnectivity creating a living flow of Wholeness between everything subtle and physcial. There no longer was a separation of Wild Nature versus controlled Nature. The colorful body of this image collapsed into itself, and streamed back to the flowing black stream returning into the heart of the Three Rivers portal and fully disappeared.
Neither Ilene nor myself had ever seen an image like this. She immediately did a sketch of this and painted it after that. Not until we arrived on our trip into Mexico, did we see and image of this experience-called a Vision Serpent. This Vision Serpent was brought forward in rituals to gather both an awareness of what was to come, but also to establish a flow of interconnectivity between everything and anything inner and outer around us in the world.
Over the years I began to be aware of that any real form of felt sense of calmness that opens us to perceive and communicate the wisdom begin an event or experience, can only occur when the flow of interconnectivity is established between my inner heart to the inner heart within everything and anything in the world around us.
Ilene painted this image without ever knowing what the form and shape of the image was. The painting below is a duplicated image of a carving of a ancient Mayan Goddess 600-700 AD petitioning the image of the Vision Serpent to her petitioning.
Wood Carving of the Ancient Maya Vision Serpent taking form and shape from the bowl on incense in ritual.
The final form the incense emerges into the form and shape too in my ritual in Fort Wayne. See the parallel between the two images.
When I established my primary anchor for my altar in Fort Wayne to the heart of my Tz’utujiil community in the Cofradia system in Santiago Atitlan 2000 mile away through the statue of the Rilaj Maam. I began a ritual of communication through intentions and prayers and incense for the Interconnectivity to be established.
To view and listen to this story of this ritual click on or paste this link below to both view the progression of the smoke forming and shaping into the image of the vision serpent, establishing the Flow of Light of Interconnectivity between these two locations as one.
There are three short audio files you can listen to where I share my impressions and perceptions during this ritual in 9a, 9b, 9c lasting 20 minutes in total.
Practical Wisdom of Nawal Kaan
The illuminating light of Nawal Kaan, establishes and grows the Flow of Light of interconnectivity from the Heart of the Land, from the Heart of the Sky, from the Heart behind all forms of Nature, from the Heart behind Humanity, for the Heart behind anything and everything that emerges from the Heart of Gaia. This is weaved together into the ability to perceive and communicate, and generate the Light of Wisdom. This Light of Wisdom is more empowering then any energy behind any illness, suffering, challenges, or living Pandemic. Regardless of the depth and breath of separation and/or isolation, this web of interconnectivity emerges a new unknown flow of Light.
Through the journey of transmutation, the pattern of Joy and Hope and my Voice of the Great Grandmother can naturally begin to emerge. Whenever I am speaking through the Presence of Joy and Hope, I am able to speak to myself or to others with a wholeness to my feelings, to my thoughts and my emotions. This allows me to experience the Presence of Hope to naturally emerge. Through the Presence of Joy and the Presence of Hope, nothing that is not in the flow of Light can remain. No duality and no awareness of separation can remain.
Now when I encounter challenges in any of the areas within my daily life, I ask a Daily Nawal for assistance, I have created in my intentions a Web of Light relationship to a particular Daily Nawal. Instead of living the energies of my challenges, this relationship that is growing between these connections to the various Web of Lights within the Daily Nawals can assist me to transmute, transform, and emerge my challenges into a new form of action. I have established this Web of Light co-relationships, for I now have the Presence of Hope available to me to walk through any and and all challenges! I embody the Presence of Love and I allow Love to form and shape the flow of the Interconnectivity within me and between my inner landscape and the inner landscape of Nature all around me.
Daily Reflections on Nawal Kaan
Assist me, the Light of Nawal Kaan, so that I may no longer have this voice inside of me that continually brings fear or blame or shame or guilt or doubt or separation upon myself or others. Especially the related fears around the massive changes of the unknown in my world around me today.
Assist me, the Light of Nawal Kaan, so that I no longer feel those fears and I no longer feel the critical voices that naturally emerge from the critical voices of those around me of my family or my friends or my workers, or the critical voices I here from my government about the changing world around me.
Assist me, the Light of Nawal Kaan, for without you emerging the web of Interconnectivity between the visible and invisible to be present in these challenging times, through your Light is the only source of inner calmness I can begin to experience.
Weave your Illuminating Light of Wisdom to emerge and transmute whatever is needed to undo whatever is keeping me in separation. Transmute my limiting stories that are holding me in a smaller, a limited world view.
Transmute any and all of my dualities and whatever is keeping me broken and reactive.
I call upon you the Light of Nawal Kaan, when I look at what is in the newspaper or in the news or in magazines, or whatever I maybe reading or hearing from the people around me about the challenges we are facing in the fears around our new unknown emergence, this Light from Nawal Kaan can transmute any and all fears and thinking that is not part of this flow of interconnectivity.
I am not trying to change them into the direction if know. I am asking your Light, Nawal Kaan, to come forward and allow the wisdom to emerge through this mystery of transmutation around my fears or my limitations around Living Life, so my unknown pathways of emergence comes forward.
Assist me that I may experience the felt sense of knowing that the Presence of Joy and the Presence of Hope supports me through my livingness through these challenging and suffering experiences and now through your Light of Emergence, we can co-partner into creating a new relationships in Living Life.
Todays Emotions: Nawal Kaan
- Whenever I experience fear, I ask to experience they inner calmness within my body to dissolves the inner fears, so that I may experience the web of Interconnectivity in Living Life today from the Light of my True Gaian Nature and the flow of LovE.
- Whenever I experience despair, I ask to experience they inner calmness within my body to dissolves the inner despair, so that I may experience the web of Interconnectivity in Living Life today from the Light of my True Gaian Nature and the flow of Hope
- Whenever I experience distress, I ask to experience they inner calmness within my body to dissolves the inner distress, so that I may experience the web of Interconnectivity in Living Life today from the Light of my True Gaian Nature and the flow of Joy
- Whenever I experience anger, I ask to experience they inner calmness within my body to dissolves the inner anger, so that I may experience the web of Interconnectivity in Living Life today from the Light of my True Gaian Nature and the flow of Compassion
- I ask Nawal Kaan, teach me and show me how to Live Life from the wisdoms within me, so through your “juice” of the Light behind my inner and outer web of Interconnectivity, can assist me in deserving to speak inwardly and outwardly to reflect the Voice within Gaia or Nawal Skirmeent. So I may experience the Light of New Beginning – New Dawning to live from my Unknown Awareness through Courage - Fearlessness - Safety - Protection - Strength – inner Calm of Body – inner Calm of Mind
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